I'm Okay!

Do you ever just feel u're not good enough? emmm it could simply mean by not being good enough for your courseworks, friends, family members, or the company you're working for... or even your landlord haha (random joke, not funny though)

I am not good enough for 'Everything'. Even 'Anything' would have felt they are too good for me. Blek! Wanting to move on... Better times are coming I will have everything back in shapes soon. They are going to be as fit as before lol :D or even fitter than last time. We'll see.

Damn that Bee-yatch lol (random anger)!!!

Somebody please sell me a "magic mirror" for free. I wanna see my future image through the mirror lol. Yeah cheapskate me! HAHA

Don't ever get on my nerves you know I've never been the sweetest person ;-) Am using reverse psychology here... yeah come and get on my nerves then see what could you get out of it!

Went to the doctor yesterday. I took a test, heart-feeling meter test, results' shown that in general 50% anger, 20% furious, 20% madness, 10% burning.... Wow! Doctor sighed and shook his head, a huge grin appeared on his face then.... Why? .... Don't know! This' my blog I write whatever I want =) I like keeping my secrets to myself and to special someones and will always keep it under wraps. I could have bought a diary to pen down every secret moment I'd had been through, but nah... sometimes secrets "come and go", too. lol

'Mysteriously' writing in this blog would help me to dig up the old secrets from my memory when I read back in future hehe. It's all about the memories, and not about referring to notes!

Shut up now and sleep by myself tonight =) well, not only tonight lol :P

Many thoughts

So many thoughts, so little time. It's either I do(s) or I don't(s), sounds simple. Unfortunately Im quite indecisive these days =(

I'm feeling all silly. It's my blog but I can't say everything I want to. These so-called "Secrets". lol

A quick Whine

Walking down a busy street. Phone ringing....

"Hello"
"Hello. Who are u?"
"WTH? who is this calling?"
"What? Yea I'm calling you so..."
"Please hang up Bye"
"Why should I listen to you?"
(DAMN)
"My name is L E B I H"
"L? E? B? I? H? LEBIH? Ohhhhhhh Cyau!!!"
"hahahaahahahhaa"
"Oh sorry I didn't know it's you. I wouldn't have been rude if I knew but I'm not in good mood now. I'm so mad. Mad with London"
"Why?"

Now she was asking me why...

Because living in London makes me feel ugly! My skin feels a lil itchy sometimes, my nails are not as beautiful as they were, my eyes look puffy and my skin is kinda dry now & dirty water... Ohhhh killing me here! I'm not happy. I wanna go home =( & I hate these people walking in front of me. They aren't looking any good.

Done my quick whine. I will stay in London. But I'm happy that she called. She came at the right time =)

Cyau aka LEBIH (with lovessssssss)

Back to normal

Cleaning up my bed, wardrobe and the living room; sitting in front of my laptop 24/7 with a cup of herbal tea... So silence my world now, I have to keep the music playing loud on my laptop because there's a certain silence driving me mad here =(

I WANNA LAUGH MY HEART OUT. Someone please help me!!!

Counting down the hours

I'm going back to London in 9 hrs time. Ask me a question: Aren't you happy to go back to London? ... Sadly, No! The thing I like the best about being home is that I ... I ... I don't know. I simply like Malaysia a lot now lol =P

Things that I didn't get to do in London, I'd had it all here in the past 2 weeks! I couldn't be happier for what I've got. Being around my parents was the best thing ever. My parents are the best thing! What would I do without you? I'm nothing without the both of you... emmmm

Tons of surprises, tons of laughter and tears of laughter during the past 2 weeks... Weiwei u're simply the greatest person in the world. (remember ur promise and our 'business' deal ;p find me some ways then I will be back for good, for sure lol) haha =p My besties love me! lolllllll The girls who have never been fake with me, who have never forgotten about my favourite speech, jokes, and craps hahahahaaha =) and of course, my 'brothers' who make me talk like a guy and I enjoy bragging about my football knowledge in front of them lolllll hahahhahaha their latest quote now is - "FUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~" ... whatever it is, just say FUHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

It's so natural that we slipped into the past and reminisced about the time we'd had together =) A lot of reminiscing! Weiwei's silly reaction... my stupid 'exit' in the cinema... the yellow towel under the.... praying for a ToTo winning so that we could make a trip to HK... 'Blue eyes' boyfriend... Malacca trip & Ball kor... and sooooooo much more hahahahhaa lol Happy Happy Happy!

I don't wanna go back to London :'( Help!!! While the whole world think they should have a good night's sleep before they leave for a trip, mommy told me I better not sleep at all now so that I can sleep on the plane later. ????!!! My heart is heavy and my eyes are puffy now ...

My face says it all... =(

Changed

I came home a very very happy girl! Some things have changed, a few things still remain the same... Seeing all again has made me realise many things, that times and feelings do change.

Don't make it hard for me; I like the easy way! I want directions, that's it.

I don't feel like going back to London. I like being back home here. Whenever thinking of going back to London it makes me sad -_- A two-week holiday is short, too short.

I wanna scream at the top of my voice: I wanna put everything behind me, give what could be given away... Life's gonna be boring again! No stupid talking, No crazy partying, No easy lifestyle... gonna be back to "hell"! sob sob sob....