Growing too fast

I'm flummoxed! I can't sleep well lately. I have so much to think of now! I need to blog so that I feel better. It's too late and no one will listen!

Look at my Parents... I hold back my tears and my heart is so painful! I'm leaving them soon They are gonna be so lonely without me at home... I just knew it because I'm the only child at home and I know we all need each other badly. I can't do much but just to keep on talking to my mother whenever I see her now! I am teaching my dad to use computer so that he would have something to do when I am not at home later! My dad works so hard everyday, and often comes home tired from the office. I really wish to run his business for him one day, if I could I would Papa... Mine is a good family, living a really good life. I've always known that... and All these I need to thank God and my parents!

Look at my Dogs... I really can't live without them. They are like my children. I play with them everyday and sometimes we even sleep together at night! Their eyes are so beautiful... & sometimes I feel like they're listening with their eyes. I always kiss them like no one else could ever do... again, they gonna miss my kisses... I'm sure of that! And for my other street dogs which stay outside of my house, I will miss them dearly too. I'll be missing the time when I hold a bowl (which filled with water) in front of them and feed them for about a minute long every afternoon and night, It has become my daily routine. They will miss my hand clapping as this is how I call them to come to me! =) All of them are so lovely! May God protect them and hold them in HIS arms forever!

My darling... I'm so in love now. He's been so understanding and supportive! He knows I can't live comfortably on my own. He has so much to worry about me... and I knew it! I can't help it but just have to make do with it... He knows how I feel and all! I don't know what to say about him and to him. Because he's just too lovely that I think I owe him too much in my whole life! I truly see him as .... as a "rare item"... yea I mean it! I really mean it! It's one of the sweetest things in my life!

My friends are leaving soon and some had gone overseas to work and further studies! We are pursuing our dreams and walking on many different paths! I have close friends whom I'd known a long time whereas some are from my college. I can't believe with only two & a half years in IACT, I could eventually find some true friends! *U know who u are*.

Alright, that's all! I can't stop.... I need to catch up with so many things in life! I can't afford to waste any time now. How I wish time could turn back and then I'd fully enjoy every moment of my life like I had not done it before! When I was young I always thought it seemed to take forever to become an adult! Now... I don't think so anymore!!!