Best Friends xoxo

True friends are so difficult to find

Best friends never give up on me

They always love me!

Thank God for this bunch of people. I am so lucky!

Where I belong

Oh gosh... Feeling so strange and awkward being back on here. Reading back all these gives me goosebumps. It's so personal though...

I was just a young girl...

Sweet! :)

i am gonna cry
im not coping well
because it's real painful
i cant afford to lose it
it's the most precious thing i've ever got in my life
it's the best thing i've ever been given in my life
pls don take it away from me
please don't i cannot imagine that to happen
i won't be able to cope with that
not ever; well not just yet

it's really painful it really really is
i hate this feeling im so worried

i can only pray
and i will go if i hav to without any hesitation
but i hope it's not this case because that then means the worst thing has happened

Please my Lord please
i'd do anything to make things go better anything... anything

For the first time ever I am feeling real disgusted in that place. The screaming/shouting across room annoyed me so much today. That face of bitchiness me hates it a lot. That face of stupidity makes me feel so sick. Yucks weirdos

Feeling knackered

Wishing today's the last day
I'd say byebye and leave for my homeland
Wishing I was home everyday after work
I miss spending time with my little ones
Wishing I could turn back time
and enjoy the most out of it

I'm only hoping Im not on the wrong route
because I do wanna make things happen for now...
and later.

Changed or Unchanged

Funny how things have changed in just a year time. The feeling that used to give me goosebum and make my heart races no longer existing. I am not gonna walk away just yet because I don't have a choice now there's one thing I cannot not care about... and that's $$$!!!

Something remain unchanged though - I still miss home so much and I love them the most!

I"M SERIOUS. Nothing can be compared with the love I get at home; it's so priceless!

Oh well, I've just realised there's something wrong and they've nothing to do with what I am doing but the people I am seeing and dealing with everyday. I believe I am not giving way to self-pity here cause I do understand that people who indulge in self-pity get addicted to it.

I think I am simply STUPID!!! And that' fucking pathetic

No words

NO words could ever describe that feeling. The whole essay he secretly wrote, esp the part ..."my naughty and beautiful daughter...." instantly touches my heart and the flowing tears quietly tell me God is good!

NO words could ever describe that feeling. She gives me all the best things in the world and puts me in the first place no matter what. She makes my heart race and gives me goosebumps whenever thinking she's given so much since day one.

God is soooo good! NO words could ever describe how lucky I feel being borne at the most beautiful family and given to the two most gorgeous people in the world.

Home Love

I am not leaving, I tell you,

I am just -- away.

Don't say Goodbye, I say,

See you later.

不快樂因為難相處
因此知難而退

真正的好朋友
　　
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
　　
而是在一起　就算不说话
　　
也不会感到尴尬

Zero / 0

I haven't found anything perfect on my scorecard yet
that's why I've been quiet lately
Patience being tested
OMG pls help!

Missing

Feeling very uneasy. If I knew that would be the last time I'd give him a hug before I left... If only I knew that's the last time I'd wanna hear him speak for a bit longer. Thinking how imperfect it would be not seeing him in that little house the next time I go back. One thing I'd never failed to do whenever I first stepped into the house - To Greet Him; "Ah Gong, hello".

He's a fortuneteller and I used to see many strangers in the house sitting in the living room waiting to meet him during chinese new year. Remember when I was a little girl neighbours of the other end saw me, she wondered which family I was from I was thinking whether to tell her my full name or... but I go I'm from the 'Ang' family, just few doors next to hers. She then smiled and told me my grandpa's full name. I went to mummy told her what had just happened. She goes ah gong is a very famous fortuneteller, of course people know his full name. Ahhh got it now. Since then I always describe him as 'the popular fortuneteller, and and, he's my grandpa'.

I like my chinese name cause it's given by him. It means a lot to me; every word has a meaning, perfectly defined by him. Used to ask him for some tips getting straight A(s) in exams when I was young lol but he always goes getting A in exams doesn't mean anything to you, ur meant for sth greater in life. Often there's some kinda communication barrier between us, wish I could speak better Hokkien, wish I got to know him better too...

Wondered he'd ever thought of me for a second before he left... been asking mummy about this cause I really wanted to know. Mummy said we shouldn't worry about this now and be happy for him that he left peacefully. True. Burst into tears when papa broke the news to me. couldn't believe that just happened; I wasn't there in the funeral, I wasn't there to cheer mummy up; I could only imagine - who what when where how!

Everything seemed too late now. I wish I had a time machine DOINK. If I had a chance to say one more thing to him, I would say thank you - you did make us so proud and I'm happy for you're my ah gong.

Sweet!

u're getting ur result tomorrow then?

yea...

you think you did alright?

not sure... or maybe not

It's okay if you failed, we will see what we could do...
you can either stay to complete it or come home for good
u don't worry so much

*speechless*
*touched*
okay. will let you know tomorrow what I get

Sweet! My papa
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We're happy after all. Mummy's been funny tho lol. as usual she never seemed to care much about results and in fact, she's a bit down tho cause passing grades means I might not go home for good any time soon lol

She goes "I thought you told us you'd most likely to fail your degree" and I go "so you rather I fail the whole thing and come home for good?" She's the coolest mum ever lol

21

Is being 21 a difficult thing? Is being 21 different than being 20? My love-being-18 thinking has never changed tho... I still wish I was 18, always lol =p

Didn't have lots to do for bday this year (as usual). Birmingham was alright, especially loving the HBK - Hot Birmingham Kids (hope I got this right lol), located in Perry Barr hahahaha. And of course, my favourite Glasgow!

First stop: Birmingham

Yummy Steamboat!!!

Second Stop: Glasgow

"I want oreo cheesecake for bday"
"So bossy. lol"


Home-made Oreo Cheesecake!
cheng cheng cheng...

Cute Bday Card lol

Best costume of Halloween 2008
but it's sooooo chinese!!! lol

Not The Same

Nothing feels the same. Just not the same. To name a few significant differences between things? Oh no I really don't have the 'balls' to do so now. No Guts No Glory!!! What a loser! Boo.

Better in Time. Hopefully

Its been the longest winter without you
I didnt know where to turn to
See somehow I cant forget you
After all that we've been through

thinking that u deserved it
now i realize that i really didnt know
I didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
all i know is, imma be ok

thought i could live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
eventhough i really loved you
ur gonna smile cause u deserve to
it'll all get better in time

was it all that easy
to just put aside my feelings

if im dreaming
dont wanna let, hurt ur feelings

but thats the path, i believe in
and i know that, time will heal it
I didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
all i know is, imma be ok

thought i could live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
eventhough i really loved you
ur gonna smile cause u deserve to
it'll all get better in time

since theres no more you and me
its time i let you go so u can be free
and live ur life how it should be
no matter how hard it is u'll be fine without me

thought i could live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
eventhough i really loved you
ur gonna smile cause u deserve to
it'll all get better in time

Overall updates; anything else?

Hello updates updates!!! Feeling abit strange, haven't been in this place for a long time now... where should I start? Aaaaa... let's mark my one-year anniversary of my stay in London. Still not liking it after a year tho lol. Wanting a change ... move to a better place?! lol Desperately needing a new job now!!! I couldn't sleep at nights thinking I'm actually jobless now =( New flat's pretty cool and I kinda like it for myself (Not Cheehow tho lol).Friendly 24-7 concierge, cool facilities, strategic location and bigger room for me too =p

tiny living room lol

weili's bedroom =)

MGH!!! *my bitch* lol

tiny-practical kitchen, Not!

Execellent views of the "London Eye" from flat

Recommended by Chef Koh lol

All girls are welcomed regardless of age or background
Cheehow: Love is compromise (hahahaha)

Missing home! wanna go home. There isn't a night goes by that I don't miss home. I definitely hope to spend some time with pa & mummy & my dogs. Seems like sth's got to be sacrificed when there's other potential new option available in life. Choices do sometimes give my life the spark I am looking for, but I'm not really willing to sacrifice. I wish I had a mirror that reflects my future self. There's no turning back in every move I'm going to take I'm so afraid of failure I don't see myself having any room to make mistakes in life. I've been telling myself I do have the time to allow myself to make mistakes. It sounds real silly but sometimes things do happen!

Glasgow: my new second home lol is a better place to live in every way except one... emm marketing job opportunities are fairly limited =(

My rolls!

His rolls!

Who made better sushi rolls?
Absolutely ME! lol

so far, so good

Well, things have been going well! Am I going to get myself back in shape soon? Oh ya, I hope so =)

Whenever I see how things have been going for me now, I have to smile myself. But I always get this weird feelings that good things will come to an end soon and bad things will pop up! Nah please don't.

Degree course will end in less than 2 months time from now. I can't wait to leave uni life I wanna move my life onto another stage - the working adulthood life. Am really looking forward to it although it'd probably be pretty much crap as being a student but it will at least bring some sort of new excitement to my diary lol, not to mention I've recently added some good and strong spices in my diary =p

I do have other worries too.... need to sort that out ASAP though. Stress! Oh... and my dissertation =( whenever comes to thinking about dissertation it will put me in a grumpy mood and my day wouldn't be off to the best start! lol

Okay gotta run to bed lol

Shawn's tagged.

Starting time: 1317

Name: Wei Li

Sisters: -
Brothers: -
Shoe size: 4
Height: 163cm

Have you ever been on a plan?: Duh!
Swam in the ocean: Duh!
Fallen asleep at school: Duh!
Broken someone's heart: No comment!
Fell off your chair: emm Yes I guess!?
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Oh yes
Saved e-mails: Duh!

What is your room like: Well, kinda messy
What's right beside you: My mobile
What is the last thing you ate: Sweet
Ever had chicken pox: Yes
Sore throat: Duh!
Stitches: No
Broken nose: Oh No Please

Do you believe in love at first sight: Yes 60/40 lol
Like picnics: aaaaa... picnics remind me of Nadia lol
Who was the last person you danced with: My besties ;)
Last made you smile: Emmm Johnfish phoned in yesterday night and crapped some jokes!
You last yelled at: Myself!

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: Yes. I spoke to Nadia this morning before she went out lol
Kiss anyone: Nah
Get sick: Nah
Talk to an ex: No. Not just yet I think haha
Miss someone: Emm Yes
Eat: Yes
Best feeling in the world: Feeling loved!? haha I don't kno lol
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Nope
What's under your bed: Nothing
Who do you really hate: I don't hate now. I only dislike!
What time is it now: 1355

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Yes
Do you have any siblings: No
Do you want children: Yes
Do you smile often: Emm Yes hehe
Do you like your hand-writing: Nah. I couldn't read my own handwriting sometimes lol
Are your toe nails painted: Yes... they are bright red lol
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Emmm I'd sleep in one's bed as long as I think it's clean (Shawn, would you sleep in my bed then? haha lol)

WHat color shirt are you wearing now: White.
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: watching "The Big Bang Theory"
I can't wait till: I finish my degree in September
When did you cry last: Last week when I was watching the drama 'Journey called life' lol
Are you a friendly person: Of course haha
Do you have any pets: Yes!!! My babies
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?:
haha SILLY question. okay Let's boooo shawn lol
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: Yes

Do you sleep with the TV on?: No
What are you doing right now?: Blogging. Duh
Have you ever crawled through a window?: No
Can you handle the truth?: Of course I can
Are you too forgiving?: Emm not really lol
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Both
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: God?
How many people can you say you've really loved?: Less than 10

Do you eat healthy?: Yes
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: Yes
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yes
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: Myself
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Oh Shawn I'm both lol
Are you confident?: Emmm

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
Oh... no 5 things for this. But I was enjoying as a little kid.

5 things on my to-do list today:

• design questionnaires
• Get Introduction done
• Have a rough idea on how to start literature review
  
• Cook healthy dinner
  
• Flat hunting
  

5 snacks I enjoy:

• Strawberry triffle
• Strawberry cheesecake
• Seaweed
• Sweet
• Ice Cream
  

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

• Invest in properties around the world
• Build my own SPCA for mommy
• Donate to any animal welfare association around the world and maybe... the poor
  
• Travel with my parents
  
• Emmm... save. Come on, this need more than just 5 things. Shawn!!!!!
  

5 of my bad habits:

• Bad temper
• Stubborn
• Selfish
• Laziness
• Giving myself unwanted stress
  

5 people to tag:

• Sandy
• Fatt Kor
• Trixie
• Yanyee
• Winnie
• Cheehow!!!
  

Oh, Thank God. It's finally done! This tag's hella long. Shawn!!!!! lol =P