Best Friends xoxo

True friends are so difficult to find

Best friends never give up on me

They always love me!

Thank God for this bunch of people. I am so lucky!

Where I belong

Oh gosh... Feeling so strange and awkward being back on here. Reading back all these gives me goosebumps. It's so personal though...

I was just a young girl...

Sweet! :)

i am gonna cry
im not coping well
because it's real painful
i cant afford to lose it
it's the most precious thing i've ever got in my life
it's the best thing i've ever been given in my life
pls don take it away from me
please don't i cannot imagine that to happen
i won't be able to cope with that
not ever; well not just yet

it's really painful it really really is
i hate this feeling im so worried

i can only pray
and i will go if i hav to without any hesitation
but i hope it's not this case because that then means the worst thing has happened

Please my Lord please
i'd do anything to make things go better anything... anything

For the first time ever I am feeling real disgusted in that place. The screaming/shouting across room annoyed me so much today. That face of bitchiness me hates it a lot. That face of stupidity makes me feel so sick. Yucks weirdos

Feeling knackered

Wishing today's the last day
I'd say byebye and leave for my homeland
Wishing I was home everyday after work
I miss spending time with my little ones
Wishing I could turn back time
and enjoy the most out of it

I'm only hoping Im not on the wrong route
because I do wanna make things happen for now...
and later.

Changed or Unchanged

Funny how things have changed in just a year time. The feeling that used to give me goosebum and make my heart races no longer existing. I am not gonna walk away just yet because I don't have a choice now there's one thing I cannot not care about... and that's $$$!!!

Something remain unchanged though - I still miss home so much and I love them the most!

I"M SERIOUS. Nothing can be compared with the love I get at home; it's so priceless!

Oh well, I've just realised there's something wrong and they've nothing to do with what I am doing but the people I am seeing and dealing with everyday. I believe I am not giving way to self-pity here cause I do understand that people who indulge in self-pity get addicted to it.

I think I am simply STUPID!!! And that' fucking pathetic